Turning 21

It seems to be a social hoohaa when one turns 21. I used to think so too. Then I start to wonder, why am I being congratulated for being brought into this world. THEY should be the one receiving the gifts and well wishes. They being my folks. Because literally, without them, I wouldnt even be here; 21 years ago, during that 21 years and 21 years and more to come.

So this year, Im not hoping for extravagant gifts or mega celebrations. I just hope everyone could congratulate not me, but my parents on the coming 12th of April.

Reason : Love

Felling like a wreck cause I miss us.

Someone asked if I really like you that much.

I said that I love you.

When you know you cant save yourself because of what you did before.

Thank You, P

Trust, it has always been an issue for me when it comes to being in a relationship. The track record shows it all, that all these while I've always only been in a one-sided love affair; that all these while I have never fully had someone's heart; that there's always someone else. And its always me finding out about it but looking for another excuse to let it slip away when they call for an end.

But this time though it was a rough start, I have a feeling that it wont be the same again.

Thank You, P.

of change growing..

change

   [cheynj]  Show IPA verb, changed, chang·ing,noun

verb (used with object)

1.

to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of(something) different from what it is or from what it wouldbe if left alone: to change one's name; to change one's opinion; to change the course of history.

2.

to transform or convert (usually followed by into): The witch changed the prince into a toad.

3.

to substitute another or others for; exchange for something else, usually of the same kind: She changed her shoes whenshe got home from the office.

4.

to give and take reciprocally; interchange: to change places with someone.

5.

to transfer from one (conveyance) to another: You'll have to change planes in Chicago.

We can look at change at so many ways. Based on perception, there is no right or wrong to how one choose to look at it. As for me, I look as change (for the better) as growth.

Everyone has their moments of growing up. Whether it be physically or even mentally. I always see growing up as something very positive. Not just because Im short and thats why growing vertically is of course a wonderful thing. But because as we grow, we get to see things in a much bigger picture, we get to see things more clearly, we do things with more sense and more consideration. Yes, it sounds oh so complicated. But thats what growing is all about. Thats for me at least.

Growing, learning. It doesnt happen if you just sit there and wait. You learn and grow from an incident, from a lesson, or from a person. Not knowing that you have so much more to grow, might save u the hardship of going through the whole process. But that makes you one step less from being more than what you can be.

of a phase...

This, phase, has already brought me nothing but feel crap about myself.

And if it were to be a catalyst to lose what I treasure so much now,  I dont know how am I to live through that. Just thinking about it now is killing me already, of losing what I foolishly unknowingly got.

hmmm. not the happiest of days this week. and i dont even know why.

nowplaying: Fly Me To the Moon - Frank Sinatra

Of something quite interesting..

Ive been approached to take up something that seems to be very heavy, or so I fell it is. The idea was presented of not the most ideal way but nonetheless very tempting. Something that has never crossed my wildest dreams. It was offered with good faith that I will be able to take that role. But very likely, I'll be accepting what's been put on the table. Not for the glitz and glamour, but for a purpose, to finally put what Ive learnt so far to use; to finally be in the hot seat and being able to overcome what it brings; and finally to make myself feel, confident.

This opportunity didnt come by just because, it was based on the track record that Ive long achieved from a place which I believe is still an incredible stepping stone for many. A place where I practically spent my teenhood growing up. A place where my life took its ultimate turning point. A place where I'd stil go for refuge, for guidance, for warmth, for comfort, for love. A place where many years back, till now, I will feel safe outside my home. I thank the people who helped mould what is of me now. The falls Ive gone through and the leaps I took, there isnt any one that I'd turn back to and regret, as it has made me, me today.

Even if this might just be a plan, or just a proposal, but the faith that has been rested in me, is already rewarding enough to know that I am not just another guy, but rather, one who people can trust and count on. Im quite contented with that, already.

now playing: The Smiths - Please, Please, Please Let me Get What I Want

Hello Readers, (if there's still any)

I havent been posting much on this blog because I now have another one where I post my photos.

Its been a new found love for it kinda makes most of my days here in Melbourne knowing the interest i take in is being appreciated by people of the world wide web. Do follow for I have been updating it quite frequently and it somewhat shows what Im doing day by day. They say a picture says a thousand words, so I hope mine will too, telling the stories and lives of the subject in that tiny frame.

Here's the link:

Jem-ed

now playing: Bon Iver - Flume

of Winter so cold and yet so warm - DAY 1

One morning I woke up during SWOT-VAC (study without teaching vacation), and I thought to myself, I need a holiday, a getaway from all this sleepless nights, taxing semester buried with work and stress. So the first thing that came to mind was a week's off from work at both jobs and probably a road trip or two with Blair. The big question was, WITH WHO? Going through my contact list, I couldnt make up my mind with who I should plan this getaway with.

Later that day at work, I received an email on my BB. Usually I wont be any keen on reading mails at work, but it came from a certain someone with the subject: "Melb". I excused myself to the back and read it right away. It says: 

"Would you be kind enough to host me from 29-th June till about 9th July...? :)".

One of the greatest line of words put together I've ever come across! It really was like god-sent. I was super ecstatic. So from then on, emails were travelling back and forth umpama cendawan selepas hujan planning out what and where we can go for the 10 days.

For almost a month I was looking forward to the day I'd pick her up at the airport. It was one of the foggiest days I've ever experience having been in Melbourne for almost a year. So there I went4 to the airport with the excitement of a kid. Thinking to myself, whatever that I planned out, wherever we go or do, its gonna be the best 10 days of my life.

After picking her up, out of a sudden, it was like winter turned to summer. The sun came out and Im pretty sure there was a rainbow somewhere. The weather was marvelous for the first half of the ten days.

Came back to my place to drop the luggage and off we went on foot to discover the great Melbourne city. I made it a point that we were gonna discover cafes that are mentioned on blogs and also Urbanspoon. So to kickstart our little adventure we went to a place called Hardware Societe. I thought it was gonna be rather secluded as Ive never heard of the place before but it was a full-house during brunch! Here's some pictures we took to tingle your taste buds.

 Tal's Hot Chocolate

My Latte

My Bircher 

Tal's PWT Baguette 

The happy kid

Yes, if you hadn't noticed the someone that I was so excited to host was non-other than Crystal Chow!!

 After brunch we took a nice long walk to the centre of it all, Melbourne Central. This is a shot of the infamous shot tower. 

Melbourne Central

Tal with the big clock

 The next stop was at the Victoria State Library and out of nowhere, "Beware The Rhino" was there. We decided to take a picture wit it just because and without knowing, we actually submitted ourselves in the running to ride the rhino win an iPad2! We even got ourselves new pajamas I <3 Trams t-shirts!

Our picture with the Rhino

Tal's in awe of how epic the LaTrobe reading was

In front of the State Library

Later I took her to the Unis that were in the city. RMIT of course to start with. There's nothing much to show since our campus IS the city itself. We then head to Melbourne Uni and swung by Trinity College.

Us in Trinity College

One thing I like/love about Melbourne is how artsy the whole place is, from awesome lanes of grafitis, to random statues along the streets, to a random giant purse on Bourke St.

After a long walk it was already time for the sun to give way. We then head to Federation Square and then down by the Yarra River where I'd used to end some of my days in the first semester.

Us at Federation Square.

The FREE t-shirt we got

 We stopped by at Mekong for fur before going home to freshen up after it got dark. The plan for the night was non other than bubble tea with TekYit, WeiNian, Alicia, Aaron and Siew Hong.

Tekyit and Tal at Fed Square

That was the first time I saw the real side of Alicia and how she can make you ROFLMAO. The whole bunch then walked along Yarra River and we ended up at Crowns where Wei Nian was so excited to show Crystal the fire that'll go off every hour. Here's a clip on his big epic fail.