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"at least she's still alive"

thank you venice for "enlightening" me last sunday... and yes... i should be thankfull n greatfull that she still walks, talks n breathes...

okay. guys n gals ladies n gentle-lelakis. last sunday in d weekly TQG we had a "sharing/discussion" session. which i felt was VERRRY much benefitial to me. why? cause i learnt to LET GO. not exactly succesive in tat YET but i'll get it. d topic of d day was "stress". broken up in groups : family, friends, studies, peer preasure (i think) and last but not least --->

re-la-tion-ships.

i chose to squeeze myself into tat group bcuz for the past weeks or so, i've been... how should i put it? hangin... as in. din know how should i feel. or wht to do. or how to react. cuz, i tend to think bout it alot. n, it's somehow stupid but... i jus cant help it. not tat i'm feeling like tat anymore but yea. it still pops up once in awhile. to end d misery, thank d stars that sis.venice was d feci for my group!

sooo... 1st things 1st... factors tat i personally felt was related to my "so-called stress" was something i'd like to call ~the after effects~ aka lepas putus cinta. my reasons leading to tat factor was bcuz i kept missin, thinkin, sobbing inside bout d whole thing. why? god knows y my brain works tat way!! XS neways. bac to d topic. i soon learnt tat evryone faces d same prob too. jus tat, some takes a longer time n some jus... in a snap of a finger n they'll be smillin like nothin ever happened. also, i learnt tat love, thr's no "i equally love u". thr's gotta be someone giving n someone on d other end. n when it's all said n done, be my guest n guess who's d one who's more 'hurt'. k... enuff said thr.

next, i'd like to say i'm on d verge on letting it all jus slip away. how?

1) distractions

i commited myself to sports. workin out. chey! spendin more time at home wit my fam. stay as far away from d things/place/words/songs tat'll remind me of it.

2) friends

here, i'd jus like to say i have a whole LOT of it which i sincerely appreciate evry single one of them. got so much consoling, sharing, emo-ing. d phrase i find most annoyin comin from guys/gals is "thr are still many fishes in the sea" and "it's not the end of the world". PPL!! I WASNT GONNA KILL MYSELF nor did i say i wouldnt get over it!! it's jus hard...

owh daym! couldnt rmb some of it dee!!

errr... i'll jus cut it short la....

after goin through all d points tat i feel i have checked to "get over" IT... it came down to a conclusion that all i need now is... TIME... FRIENDS... LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!! then, a whisper sessions went on wit me n sis.venice. she told me tat i should be thankfull for that she's still around. around in the sense that she's alive and that i could make changes with wat i have now n d situations i'm in. n to think it in a bigger scale, it's jus nothingness. in the sense that, take all this tat's happenin. n perhaps, compare it to the earth. water, land, plants etc. wats all thr's left? give it a thought... i might not put it in a right way but jus stop n not stare but THINK... n so.. i did... to come to a conclusion tat, hey!! it's so easy after all... jus... let go n thr u have it!

~nothingness~

to frenz like my sexy othniel, if only i could post along a song that i feel is perfect for this very post. but sadly. i tak tahu how. =( neways, it's a song by a person really close tittled: ~i'll be fine~

here again, i'd like to thank evryone that has been "layan-ing" me through diz aka emo time... i'm all btr now n its b cuz of

YOU!!!

love, xoxo