does this still matter? sigh...

U know… wheneva u face something in life or an obstacles jus pops up or even when u make a decision… be strong… stay strong… diz few days tat jus went by, I’ve failed to do tat… and… I guess it’s jus the wrong way I’m taking the whole situation… “its not the end of the world”… tatz wat evry1 told me.. heck… tatz wat I’ll tell any in my shoes too… after giving it a big thought… to have some1 to count on u… u gotta 1st be strong… to give tat person tat assurance they seek from u… no1 wants to be close to a person tat jus crumbles when they come to a “dead end”.. I certainly wont… so… I promised myself… to be strong… again, hoping tat tat treasure of mine will be found again and stay as mesmerizing as ever… also, I gotta remind myself, d higher hopes I have for wat I want, d more hurt I’ll get if it doesn’t go my way… so any1 out thr hoping for something good? My advice is to be ready for the worst but hope for the best… or… wateva way tatz possible to keep urself from getting hurt… Hope ya’ll know wat I was trying to say in the last post… cuz I really
6 444 7777 7777 0 6 999 0 22 2 22 999…

jus after yesterday, I couldn’t even shut my eyes or sleep soundly… it was a big blow to me… too big… sigh… and it jus keeps getting btr… today, went to another of “sung’s failed plans”… kena ffk… wuz suppose to be a whole big group of us havin a jog around d neighbourhood but it ended up jus a few sesat ppl playin basketball at d court… we even had to share d ball wit lil kids!! Wth man… came home n sorta kena from dad… “went JOGGING?? Where??!! Hmph…” I dun understand wat I did tat got him mad also.. haiz…
went to parade to get my dad’s present for his bday… which is TMR!!! Gosh… d plan is to giv him a lousy present then surprise him wit d REAL present later… bought him a cool fountain pen wit his name engraved on it from Parker (aint cheap)… bought another mechanical pencil as d “de-tour”… well… he does need both… HAHAX!! Owh.. got him a belt from Polo too... hopes he likes all of it la…
sigh… I’m feeling so lost now… I still dun understand how it happened… or why did it happen… but it jus did… saw d signs earlier but I jus ignored it hoping it wuz jus a small matter… but it wasn’t… lying to urself… don’t do it… sucks… when reality hits u bac… u’ll end up a lost pup…
-already 444 0 6 444 7777 7777 0 44 33 777-

lost treasure...

finally have time to sit n write again...

lots has happen since i last typed ere... n i mean LOTS!!!

d main thing tat happened wuz my treasure... it took me long to find it... took me ages to open it... n when i did... i lost it... it all happened in a blink of an eye...

i was enjoying tat very treasure of mine... sharing evryday n evrything wit it... thinkin tat it will be mine for a long time... but i wuz wrong... tat treasure started to fade... i didnt even know it... tilll... it all fell rite infront of me... dissapeared when i tried to grab it bac... it was all like a dream... a very sweet dream i must add... but... it wasnt real... a pinch on my hand n it was all washed away... why? i tend to ask myself tat too... a mystery... tatz wat i call it... my mysterious treasure... lost... hoping to find it bac again sumday... wether it was a dream or will it come true again... only time will tell... n i'm certainly hoping for the best...