oops?

k.. after tat 'emo' post of mine, i got a comment from a close friend.. she's right too! she roughly jus said that letting go sometimes is not a choice? or something like that? shits... i forgot!! =S neways, what she said hit me in d head too.. got me thinkin for few days/nights.. yea..

was sick for almost a week.. on sunday, i felt my whole body achin.. really achin.. felt really uncomfortable.. went for lunch at HOLIDAY VILLA.. yes... again.. (had MSB thr d night b4)... didnt have any appetite.. =S went to SweaPhin's hse after that for meeting.. felt dead but still put a smile on... =) later in d evenin me n my fam went to our club in bukitjalil for a swim.. my dad was practising his golf swing at d driving range n i went to give it a try.. boy o boy u do not wanna play golf while havin body aches.. ouch!! but still i whacked a few balls thr... =X swim swim swim.. dinner dineer dinner.. then.. FEVER!!

woke up d next mornin *pssss* HAWT!! skipped schl n slept all day...

woke up d NEXT mornin *psss* HAWT AGAIN!! skipped schl n slept all day.. went to d clinic n found out i have a throat infection.. =S

fely btr d next day n went to schl.. had a trip on thurs... B-O-R-I-N-G!! indescribable!! shitness... it made my fever come back again.. came home n took a few pills.. was about to sleep till *beep* "leave now la! =)"... OMG... promised huakit to have 'lunch' b4 tuition at McD... so got my ass up n zoom ova.. keke.. here comes d naughty part, i bought myself a Mcflurry despite coughin like hell.. YUM!! ate that while finishin my test in tuition too.. amazingly.. my cough stopped!! wakaka...

its gettin quite late now n gotta get some rest for SATURDAY schl tmr... >.>

nytz world!!

p.s i dont mind being overprotective if it makes u happy!!(somehow) XD

........

"at least she's still alive"

thank you venice for "enlightening" me last sunday... and yes... i should be thankfull n greatfull that she still walks, talks n breathes...

okay. guys n gals ladies n gentle-lelakis. last sunday in d weekly TQG we had a "sharing/discussion" session. which i felt was VERRRY much benefitial to me. why? cause i learnt to LET GO. not exactly succesive in tat YET but i'll get it. d topic of d day was "stress". broken up in groups : family, friends, studies, peer preasure (i think) and last but not least --->

re-la-tion-ships.

i chose to squeeze myself into tat group bcuz for the past weeks or so, i've been... how should i put it? hangin... as in. din know how should i feel. or wht to do. or how to react. cuz, i tend to think bout it alot. n, it's somehow stupid but... i jus cant help it. not tat i'm feeling like tat anymore but yea. it still pops up once in awhile. to end d misery, thank d stars that sis.venice was d feci for my group!

sooo... 1st things 1st... factors tat i personally felt was related to my "so-called stress" was something i'd like to call ~the after effects~ aka lepas putus cinta. my reasons leading to tat factor was bcuz i kept missin, thinkin, sobbing inside bout d whole thing. why? god knows y my brain works tat way!! XS neways. bac to d topic. i soon learnt tat evryone faces d same prob too. jus tat, some takes a longer time n some jus... in a snap of a finger n they'll be smillin like nothin ever happened. also, i learnt tat love, thr's no "i equally love u". thr's gotta be someone giving n someone on d other end. n when it's all said n done, be my guest n guess who's d one who's more 'hurt'. k... enuff said thr.

next, i'd like to say i'm on d verge on letting it all jus slip away. how?

1) distractions

i commited myself to sports. workin out. chey! spendin more time at home wit my fam. stay as far away from d things/place/words/songs tat'll remind me of it.

2) friends

here, i'd jus like to say i have a whole LOT of it which i sincerely appreciate evry single one of them. got so much consoling, sharing, emo-ing. d phrase i find most annoyin comin from guys/gals is "thr are still many fishes in the sea" and "it's not the end of the world". PPL!! I WASNT GONNA KILL MYSELF nor did i say i wouldnt get over it!! it's jus hard...

owh daym! couldnt rmb some of it dee!!

errr... i'll jus cut it short la....

after goin through all d points tat i feel i have checked to "get over" IT... it came down to a conclusion that all i need now is... TIME... FRIENDS... LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!! then, a whisper sessions went on wit me n sis.venice. she told me tat i should be thankfull for that she's still around. around in the sense that she's alive and that i could make changes with wat i have now n d situations i'm in. n to think it in a bigger scale, it's jus nothingness. in the sense that, take all this tat's happenin. n perhaps, compare it to the earth. water, land, plants etc. wats all thr's left? give it a thought... i might not put it in a right way but jus stop n not stare but THINK... n so.. i did... to come to a conclusion tat, hey!! it's so easy after all... jus... let go n thr u have it!

~nothingness~

to frenz like my sexy othniel, if only i could post along a song that i feel is perfect for this very post. but sadly. i tak tahu how. =( neways, it's a song by a person really close tittled: ~i'll be fine~

here again, i'd like to thank evryone that has been "layan-ing" me through diz aka emo time... i'm all btr now n its b cuz of

YOU!!!

love, xoxo

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Instructions:Remove one question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people from your list. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them that they have been tagged.
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1. At what age you wished to marry?
?!?!?!?!.

2.Will you consider sexual relationships before marriage?
MUAHAHA.. sounds fun...

3. Do you smoke?
wth?! NO!!
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4. What is the latest gadget that you own?
ipod(b'day gift).

5. Who did you mostly texted yesterday?
jamie.

6. How old are you and are you a virgin?
17, yes?.

7. What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?
hmmm... i have my OWN money?.

8. Chocolates , Oreo or Vanilla?
CHocs mend broken hearts.

9. Where do you wish to get married?
by the beach.

10. How old do you think you will be permanently owned by love?
accordin to my last post, till i d moment i say "i do".

11. How many kids do you want?
1+1+1.

12.What is your full name?
Jeremy Kuan Zhong YAng.

13. Name the latest book you bought?
*shit! we cant buy textbooks nymore*.

14. Do you prefer mother or father?
having both, i'm already happy.

15.who are you missing right now?

her =S.

16.Name the first person that came into ur mind.
eeek!! SUNG.

17. The most exciting place you want to go?
dreamland.

18. What is your favourite colour?
bluee.

19.Do you believe in God?
definately.
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20. What are you doing right now?
texting.

i tag:

you

youuu

youuuu

u!

YOUUU!!

marriAGE

teehee!! got diz e-mail from someone n feel tat it should be shared!! enjoy!! =)

1.Marriage is not a word. It's a sentence (a life sentence).

2.Marriage is love. Love is blind. Therefore marriage is an institution for the blind.

3.Marriage is an institution in which a man loses his Bachelor's Degree and the woman gets her masters.

4.Marriage is a three-ring circus:engagement ring, wedding ring and suffeRING.

5.Married life is full of excitement and frustration: In the first year of marriage,the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens. In the third year, they both speak and the NEIGHBOUR listens.

6.Getting married is very much like going to a restaurant with friends.You order what you want, and when you see what the other person has, you wish you had ordered that instead.
7.There was this man who muttered a few words in the church
and found himself married. A year later he mutteredsomething in his sleep and found himself divorced.
8.A happy marriage is a matter of giving and taking; the husband gives and the wife takes.

9.Son: How much does it cost to get married, Dad? Father:
I don't know s on, I'm still paying for it.
10.Son: Is it true Dad? I heard that in ancient China , a man doesn't
know his wifeuntil he marries her. Father:
That happens everywhere, son, EVERYWHERE!
11. Love is one long sweet dream, and marriage is the alarm clock.

12. They say that when a man holds a woman's hand before marriage, it is love;after marriage it is self-defense.

13.When a newly married man looks happy, we know why. But when a 10-year married man looks happy,we wonder why.

14.There was this lover who said that he would go through hell for her. They got married,and now he is going through HELL.

16.When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her.

17.Eighty percent of married men cheat in America , the rest cheat in Europe .

18.After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin. They just can't face each other, but they still stay together.

19.Marriage is man and a woman become one. The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.

20.Before marriage, a man yearns for the woman he loves. After the marriage the 'Y' becomes silent.

21.I married Miss right; I just didn't know her first name was Always.

22.It's not true that married men live longer than single men, it only seems longer.

23.Losing a wife can be hard. In my case, it was almost impossible.

24.A man was complaining to a friend: I HAD IT ALL-MONEY, A BEAUTIFUL HOUSE, THE LOVE OF A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, THEN POW! IT WAS ALL GONE. WHAT HAPPENED, asked his friend. He says MY WIFE FOUND OUT.

25.WIFE: Let's go out and have some fun tonight. HUSBAND: OK, but if you get home before I do, leave the hallway lighs on.

26.At a cocktail party, one woman said to another: AREN'T YOU WEARING YOUR RING ON THE WRONG FINGER? The other replied, YES, I, AM. I MARRIED THE WRONG MAN.

27.Man is incomplete until he gets married, then he is finished.

28.It doesn't matter how often a married man changes his job,he still ends up with the same boss.
29.A man inserted an ad in the paper - WIFE WANTED. The next day
he receivd a hundred of letters and they all said the - YOU CAN HAVE MINE.
30.When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing - either the car is new or the wife is.

marriage... wonder how it'll feel like one day... one thing's for sure, i'll try not to think like all mentioned above... i'll TRY!! XD

SIGH squared

SIGH SIGH SIGH

double sighs...

FIRST!! my class lost d match today in d bball tourney... all i have to say is "we lost a battle but the war is still on" baybeh!! didnt really bother bout the score of d match though... i knew i missed 2 3-point shots to save d match... a scar tat'll be hard to erase... =S owh... n a few scrathes came together wit d lost.. ouch!! two deep slashes on my left hand aint helpin d fact tat i'll be playin in a volley tournament in SRIKL tmr... =( hope d fruit we'll bear will be much sweeter than wat i had today... sobs sobs... cry cry... HAHAX!! well... at least my pic will be posted on mingmingfengfeng.blogspot.com ;P *helpin u promote k!!*

SECONDLY!! talent quest second round... ARGH!!! mixed emotions but none are positively uplifting... my dear... a great loss they'll have in tat quest they're havin... trust me.. it wasnt cause of the coke "on-you" which i somehow still cant see or feel over that head of yours that i'm saying this.. =D SHIT HAPPENS??! u did nothin wrong n belive me when i say LOADS enjoyed your performance... =) kudos to mr "i-have-to-attend-wedding" too... great job altogether...

a rainbow after that rain will jus be a stone throw away, so chin up n smile as evrythin will be in place again!!

tmr... still wonderin how it'll be.. its gonna be awkward for a reason... smiles? frowns? tears? laughter? hope for d best is all we can do now...

till then, may YOU be well n happy always!! =)

GOOD LUCK

tmr... the smksu inter-class basketball tourney is bac!! cheh-wah...
so my class will be participatin again diz year... hoping to win, theese are d donkeys in d team... :

a l l e n - sm*k*r but still can run
s u n g - d jacoon who wished to dunk since... eva!! but neva had...
h u a k i t - a dude who claims he's "GONNA HAVE ASTHMA".. ( eat seahorse n garlic)
j a s o n - errr... muscles anyone?
c h e n g l u - addmath pro... so can help us count how much we'll be winnin la...
s y a u q i - dont let him buka or ur DEAD!!!
c h oo i si - girl power baybeh!! grrr
J E R E M Y - hmmm ?!

we set d "uniform" for our class to wear tmr...
1)tight shirt (sexay)
2)short shorts... *above knee* (SEXAY)
3)bandanas *LIKE COWBOYS* (SEXAY)
hopefully evryone follows n wears d stuff listed above... XD it'll be a hell load of fun!! haha... a strategy to distract d opponents wit our beautiful legs as well as outstanding body!!
wish us luck!! GO S I G M A !!!

jeng JENG jeng

jeng jeng jeng is right!!

LOL!! i wuz dreamin sweetly n suddenly, *in my dream* i went to d toilet n had to shit... dun worry, i din shit in my pants... lol... BUT!! i woke up rite away n had d urge to use d toilet for some BIG business... sat thr for **(u dun wanna know how long)... wonderin wat i ate last nite but couldnt rmb... neways...

today... is... OPEN DAY!! *dramatic music background*

instead of goin to school to get killed with comments from teacher, i went to school wit a fren of mine(save petrol) n waited for him to finish n we chao to a court near school n played bballl!! lol... wuz suppose to be some "pre-inter-class" mtach but not all turned up...

SUDDENLY (again) while playin... i had to use d toilet again... i was like "OMG!! NOT NOW!!!" walked all d way bac to schl n .... yurp... felt so much btr!! haha... it was a long walk to school... trust me... XD

met up wit my mum in schl after she took my report crd... she said my teacher told her "he's improved TREMENDOUSLY" wonder if its true or not... haha...

later i went ova to metro to sign up for driving class... ere's some advice:
1) choose ur school wisely - some agencies are jus out to get money... they offer cheap but in d end u still have to pay d infamous "cofee-money" so it'll all come bac to square one...
2) make sure tat school is JPJ "approved"... not sure how to check but i guess u can check d JPJ website where they'll list down d approved academies
3) go by this month!! or u'll have to pay more... (PETROL NAIK SO KENA NAIK LA)
anythin else jus feel free to ask n i'll tell all tat i know or heard of la.. =)

alrights... gotta stop for now... tuition later... haiz.... taa!!

A N T M A N !!

another wonderful/enjoyable video by d AAF productions...

for this video:

jeremy - antman!

mingfeng - sotongman

sunglin - before antman became antman

WATCH OUT FOR PART TWO!! enjoy... =)

REUNION YESTERDAY was AWESOME!! we makan makan game game video video... some memories are just too sweet to be described... meeting up wit KALYANA MITRAs (spiritual frenz) who u spent four days wit is jus wonderful!! we brought bac a cd containin pics from camp... ere are some wit me in it!! =)

ex TDC committee in TDC X
SU-ians in camp
MEN!!

tdc X!!
talent nite...
expression - shocked!!
rojak!!!
d lame gang...

me n things i love!!
tdc x t-shirt anyone?
team ROJAK!!

*RING* goes my phone early in the mornin today... woke up... cuci muka then went down for b'fast...

*VROOM* we went to SJBA for sunday class n later for teen quest... fun fun fun!! played a game like whr u had to guess d person's name when they open d "curtain" before the other fella guess ur name... i was d first who went n when they opened d "curtain", i went:"ABUERERXRWGRS!!! ALEXANDER!!"... still menang... too chun d la me... =D later, we had b'day celebrations for MARCH APRIL MAY JUNE babies... i'm an APRIL baby so... yea... we had a raspberry cheese yoghurt cake... YUMMAY!!!

*VROOM* again, went ova to oneU!! i actually wanted to go to schl...yes... on a sunday... we have a talent quest audition so i wanted to go support some frenz of mine... wait wait... i jus have to do diz... YEAY!! YOU GOT THROUGH!!haha... okay... so i was walkin in oneU n guess who i bumped into?! JASON LO baybeh!! managed to grab a pic wit him... his daughters are SO FREAKIN CUTE!! they have tat mat saleh look of coz... his not tat er... fit.. either... still, a cool local artist!! fir those who doesnt know, his d dude who sang -evening news- operator d line is dead-...

i guess tatz all for now... enjoy d pics!!

we skipped bio one day n made a video while in d schl's library....

bruce - jeremy

hulk - sung lin

elizabeth - lucas

villian - hua kit

cameraman - tg.daniel

d dude who was suppose to dance - jason wong

talk...

when u have something on ur mind, no matter wat it is like relationship prob, school, frenz... jus find some1 to share it with!! frens... family... enemy... whoever it'll take to jus pour out your feelings... dont EVA keep it to yourself and think that you can handle it BY YOURSELF... u might think it's being strong but it'll jus haunt you from time to time... well... that's what i think... =) so... yea... anythin it is... jus find someone to talk it out... i'm available!! hahax... XP

does this still matter? sigh...

U know… wheneva u face something in life or an obstacles jus pops up or even when u make a decision… be strong… stay strong… diz few days tat jus went by, I’ve failed to do tat… and… I guess it’s jus the wrong way I’m taking the whole situation… “its not the end of the world”… tatz wat evry1 told me.. heck… tatz wat I’ll tell any in my shoes too… after giving it a big thought… to have some1 to count on u… u gotta 1st be strong… to give tat person tat assurance they seek from u… no1 wants to be close to a person tat jus crumbles when they come to a “dead end”.. I certainly wont… so… I promised myself… to be strong… again, hoping tat tat treasure of mine will be found again and stay as mesmerizing as ever… also, I gotta remind myself, d higher hopes I have for wat I want, d more hurt I’ll get if it doesn’t go my way… so any1 out thr hoping for something good? My advice is to be ready for the worst but hope for the best… or… wateva way tatz possible to keep urself from getting hurt… Hope ya’ll know wat I was trying to say in the last post… cuz I really
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jus after yesterday, I couldn’t even shut my eyes or sleep soundly… it was a big blow to me… too big… sigh… and it jus keeps getting btr… today, went to another of “sung’s failed plans”… kena ffk… wuz suppose to be a whole big group of us havin a jog around d neighbourhood but it ended up jus a few sesat ppl playin basketball at d court… we even had to share d ball wit lil kids!! Wth man… came home n sorta kena from dad… “went JOGGING?? Where??!! Hmph…” I dun understand wat I did tat got him mad also.. haiz…
went to parade to get my dad’s present for his bday… which is TMR!!! Gosh… d plan is to giv him a lousy present then surprise him wit d REAL present later… bought him a cool fountain pen wit his name engraved on it from Parker (aint cheap)… bought another mechanical pencil as d “de-tour”… well… he does need both… HAHAX!! Owh.. got him a belt from Polo too... hopes he likes all of it la…
sigh… I’m feeling so lost now… I still dun understand how it happened… or why did it happen… but it jus did… saw d signs earlier but I jus ignored it hoping it wuz jus a small matter… but it wasn’t… lying to urself… don’t do it… sucks… when reality hits u bac… u’ll end up a lost pup…
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lost treasure...

finally have time to sit n write again...

lots has happen since i last typed ere... n i mean LOTS!!!

d main thing tat happened wuz my treasure... it took me long to find it... took me ages to open it... n when i did... i lost it... it all happened in a blink of an eye...

i was enjoying tat very treasure of mine... sharing evryday n evrything wit it... thinkin tat it will be mine for a long time... but i wuz wrong... tat treasure started to fade... i didnt even know it... tilll... it all fell rite infront of me... dissapeared when i tried to grab it bac... it was all like a dream... a very sweet dream i must add... but... it wasnt real... a pinch on my hand n it was all washed away... why? i tend to ask myself tat too... a mystery... tatz wat i call it... my mysterious treasure... lost... hoping to find it bac again sumday... wether it was a dream or will it come true again... only time will tell... n i'm certainly hoping for the best...