God must have spent a little more time on you

Baby mily,

Can this be true?

Tell me, can this be real?

How can I put into words what I feel?

My life was complete

I thought I was whole

Why do I feel like I'm losing control?

I never thought that love could feel like this

and you've changed my world with just one kiss.

How can it be that right here with me

there's an angel?

It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river

Peaceful and deep

Your soul is like a secret

That I never could keep

When I look into your eyes

I know that it's true

God must have spent...

A little more time

On you...

Love you!

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A song by a Thai group BigAss!!

I'd like to dedicate this to Emily Lee, It's been a rough journey to get to where we are now. I think we both know how hard it was to get to where we are now. :)

รู้ว่าเสี่ยงแต่คงต้องขอลอง รู้ว่าเหนื่อยถ้าอยากได้ของที่อยู่สูง

roo waa siang dtae kong dtong kor long roo waa neuay taa yaak daai kong tee yoo soong

I know the risk but I have to try, I know I must be tired if I want things that are too high.

ยังไงจะขอลองดูซักที

yang ngai ja kor long doo sak tee yang ngai ja kor long doo sak tee

Regardless, I'm going to try.

รู้ว่าเราแตกต่างกันเท่าไร รู้ว่าเธออยู่ไกล อยู่สูงขนาดไหน

roo waa rao dtaek dtaang gan tao-rai roo waa ter yoo glai yoo soong ka-naat nai

Even though I know how different we are from each other. I know that you are far away, so high up that it's unthinkable,

ใครๆก็รู้เป็นไปไม่ได้หรอก

krai-krai gor roo bpen bpai mai dai rok

everyone knows that it just couldn't be.

แต่คำว่ารักมันสั่งให้ฉันต้องปีนขึ้นไป

dtae kam waa rak man sang hai chan dtong bpeen keun bpai

But my love tells me that I have to climb up there.

ได้เกิดมาเจอเธอทั้งที ไม่ว่ายังไงต้องลองดีซัก...วัน

daai gert maa jer ter tang tee mai waa yang ngai dtong long dee sak . . . wan

To get to see you, no matter what, I have to try it some day.

อยากรักก็ลองเสี่ยง ไม่อยากให้เธอเป็นเพียงภาพในความฝัน

a-yaa grag gor long siang mai yaak hai ter bpen piang paap nai kwaam fan

I want to love you so I'm willing to take the risk, I don't want you to be just a picture in my dream.

ลำบากลำบนไม่สนใจ ตะเกียกตะกายซักเพียงใด

lam-baak lam-bon mai-son jai dta-giag-dta-gaai-sak-pieang-dai

I don't care how hard it is, I'll only keep climbing,

ก็ดีกว่าปล่อยเธอไปจากฉัน

gor dee gwaa bploi ter bpai jaak chan

it's better than letting you go.

ตกหลุมรักจริงๆ เพราะรักจริงๆ เธอคงไม่ว่ากัน

dtok loom rak jing-jing pror rak jing-jing ter kong mai waa gan

I fall deeply in love with you, because I truly do love you, and you won't blame me.

แม้ต้อยต่ำแต่ยังมีหัวใจ แม้ต้องเจ็บ แต่มันก็คุ้มก็สุขใจ

mae dtoi-dtam dtae yang mee hua jai mae dtong jep dtae man gor koom gor sook jai

No matter how low, I will still have heart; though it might hurt, it'll be worthwhile because I'd be happy.

ไม่ผิดใช่ไหมที่ฉันไม่เจียมตัว

mai pit chai mai tee chan mai jiam dtua

It's not wrong of me, right? To be not so modest.

เมื่อคำว่ารักมันสั่งให้ฉันทำตามหัวใจ

meua kam waa rak man sang hai chan tam dtaam hua jai

When my love tells me to follow my heart.

ได้เกิดมาเจอเธอทั้งที ไม่ว่ายังไงต้องลองดีซัก...วัน

daai gert maa jer ter tang tee mai waa yang ngai dtong long dee sak . . . wan

To get to see you, no matter what, I have to try it some day.

อยากรักก็ลองเสี่ยง ไม่อยากให้เธอเป็นเพียงภาพในความฝัน

a-yaa grag gor long siang mai yaak hai ter bpen piang paap nai kwaam fan

I want to love you so I'm willing to take the risk, I don't want you to be just a picture in my dream.

ลำบากลำบนไม่สนใจ ตะเกียกตะกายซักเพียงใด

lam-baak lam-bon mai-son jai dta-giag-dta-gaai-sak-pieang-dai

I don't care how hard it is, I'll only keep climbing,

ก็ดีกว่าปล่อยเธอไปจากฉัน

gor dee gwaa bploi ter bpai jaak chan

it's better than letting you go.

ตกหลุมรักจริงๆ เพราะรักจริงๆ เธอคงไม่ว่ากัน

dtok loom rak jing-jing pror rak jing-jing ter kong mai waa gan

I fall deeply in love with you, because I truly do love you, and you won't blame me.

(Interlude)

ได้เกิดมาเจอเธอทั้งที ไม่ว่ายังไงต้องลองดีซัก...วัน

daai gert maa jer ter tang tee mai waa yang ngai dtong long dee sak . . . wan

To get to see you, no matter what, I have to try it some day.

อยากรักก็ลองเสี่ยง ไม่อยากให้เธอเป็นเพียงภาพในความฝัน

a-yaa grag gor long siang mai yaak hai ter bpen piang paap nai kwaam fan

I want to love you so I'm willing to take the risk, I don't want you to be just a picture in my dream.

ลำบากลำบนไม่สนใจ ตะเกียกตะกายซักเพียงใด

lam-baak lam-bon mai-son jai dta-giag-dta-gaai-sak-pieang-dai

I don't care how hard it is, I'll only keep climbing,

ก็ดีกว่าปล่อยเธอไปจากฉัน

gor dee gwaa bploi ter bpai jaak chan

it's better than letting you go.

ตกหลุมรักจริงๆ เพราะรักจริงๆ เธอคงไม่ว่ากัน

dtok loom rak jing-jing pror rak jing-jing ter kong mai waa gan

I fall deeply in love with you, because I truly do love you, and you won't blame me.

ตกหลุมรักจริงๆ รักเธอจริงๆ เธอคงไม่ว่ากัน

dtok loom rak jing-jing rak ter jing-jing ter kong mai waa gan

I fall deeply in love with you, I truly do love you, and you won't blame me.

Love you...

Emily Lee,

Thank you so much for putting up to a guy like me..

Really appreciate it..

It's gonna be a bumpy ride, But i'm sure we'll pull through it..

Love you loads!!

*rawr*

A nice fresh haircut just makes you wanna jump!

Of spaghetti, vanila coke and "Confessions of a Shopaholic"

Christmas..

Merrily we celebrate with loved ones.. Listen while joy and laughter are spread all across the air.. Filling it with so much love that it almost feels like valentines warms the heart and soothes the soul; Knowing that the year is coming to an end. Where for some, it just might be a whole new beginning..

What plans?

What's most important is that every passing second of this joyful celebration is shared and cherished with none other than your very own loved ones one..

Myself, I crossed a thousand miles the state and into the land where Cinemas, Starbucks, and Malls are highways away just to spend my Christmas; Port Dickson. On the eve itself I embarked the journey of cramped super hot KTMs and loud indian music playing busses to find myself in the car of my dear Jie, Angela. Off we went to pick up my christmas present and we swifted to Glory Beach Resort where i'll be spending the next two days there.

So on Christmas eve, there was not much we can do but to lock ourselves up in the room and counting down the time to the clock strikes 12 as Jie didnt have a car to drive us around. We, though, managed to get out for a simple supper at a nearby mamak! *food! joy!* (yes, foood-wise, i was a pretty sad boy) Anyhoos, got to see

Jie's Jie and her son! Cute little fella was playing "hide and seek" with me. Ironically he was acting like an ostrich covering his eyes thinking I wont be able to see him. Rofl! Then I went back to the hotel and spent the night with bitter coffee the only thing i wanted for Christmas. *warm*

Waking up as the sun is already up in the sky.. It was Christmas morning! To find that my wish came true and lying next to me for Christmas affirmed that Santa put me on the Good Boy list after all this year. *Bite me* So.. "What to do?"

Like i said, spending time with the one you love beats any plans. Though, we still manage to come up with something to do for the day. A cab to the Bus terminal, a busride to mere civilization! Running short on cash on your first date is not a funny thing. *seriously* However, we still manage to plan and survived through lunch, almost the wholeAvatar, our ingredients for dinner and of course the marathon back to the hotel! One thing I REALLY regretted was not making the

deal where if we were on time for the bus, then it'll be a 100%. *rawr*

Yes, it taste better than it looks.. ;)

Tell me now, what beats not having any utensils to cook but managing to prepare dinner with hot water?? Okay, I'm sure the likes of Instant noodles will surely be going through your heads. But believe it or not? Our first dinner was nontheless, our own-cooked Spaghetti Bolognese. (Need i remind that we had NO cooking utensils; not even a fork!) Dinner was, of course, awesome! Accompanied with Vanilla coke and a ketinggalan movie; Confessions of a Shopaholic.

Despite all the hoo-haas, Christmas turned out to be just the way I wanted it to be.. with You!

Only One

Hatiku membara..

oooh!

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*rawr*

Just got back from an awesome experience of camp last night. One that will probably go down in my history books for sure! award winning speech coming up: "I would like to thank the advisors, the EXCOs, the participants, the committee and last but certainly not the least, SWEA PHIN for making it all happen!!"

It has been a long and though journey for me. But luckily, with such great Kalyana Mitras, I managed to pull through.. And hopefully, would like to see everyone learn, live, and love "YES! I M POSSIBLE!"

"no more problems, just challenges..."

holidays!

Wowzers.. This holiday has been a whirlwind for me. First time in my life so far that I'm not rotting and just sitting in front of the computer like my brother all day playing facebook applications. And no, I haven't been wasting my money or time loitering in malls and yumcha-ing. Apparently this time around, I got my hands tied up am busy planning the most awesome-st camp ever with my Kalyana Mitras (spiritual friends). It'll be happening from the 17th of Dec till the 21st of Dec. And I assure those that are attending that it's gonna rock ass socks!

hmmm.. What else have I been doing since I got the "out-of-jail" pass.. Ooooh! First thing was me and my family traveled all the way up to Terengganu for my relatives wedding. Had a blast camwhoring on the beach with my siblings and cousins. After the wedding, we head to Kota Bharu for a relaxing holiday together with my aunt and cousins at Lake Toba Pantai Sri Tujuh. We got ourselves a suite and had a BBQ dinner! Happy Happy Joy Joy.. The next day, Me and dad had to rush home cause dad had to work. It took us fuggin 10 hours to reach home! Again, i think i lost half my ass sitting in the car.. :(

The next day, got a call from dear Esther from the SAO (student affairs office) to help out in the library cuz they needed help for stock-check. I tell you, Metropolitan's library is just filled with dust and dead textbooks. We actually had to wear masks to clean that sad library. Well, 5bucks an hour for a workoutto carry a few thousand books off the shelves and put it back on again was okay after all. That was how I spent the remaining of the first week.

2nd week was pretty much filled with sports and events. You can checkout some of the pics from my facebook for the event that me and Pei Song were a part of the committee. This was where i set hands on some of the free Nivea products. *slrrrrp* Not to forget, I managed to catch up with a good friend of mine back from high school, Buttie! Like she said, we had a very nice and comforting heart to heart talk bout what we were facing and managed to comfort and hopefully find answer from each other. Cant stress how friends of mine like Buttie play a big part of my life. ;)

Well, there's another 3 weeks or so for the remaining of the holidays before I start hell college again with assignments and more shits. Hopefully will update you through blog! or you can always see what I'm doing through twitter and also facebook!

Camp in one week time. YES! I M POSSIBLE!

*cheeers*

Heeeeeeeyaaaaah!!!

You'd better watch out, broook!

I wonder if people still do come time to time to check my blog.. (Thank you for still tuning in!)
Anyways...

It's been a rough, long, and winding journey i chose to embark.. I think i know why, and I still dont know how.. But now, hand-in-hand with people I treasure, things certainly has started to move on smoothly.. Move Along - AAR

"Are you happier now?" A very interesting way to sum up what I'm feeling at the moment.. You see, happiness (from my point of view) in this case wont and cant mean the same thing before and after the incident.. duh i was happy while it lasted, but after giving it some thoughts and some time to digest it, happiness wasn't what i could find there.. Realizing that it was all just my own hallucination.. Realization, my friends, is one big step; Accepting, is another; Overcoming, that takes a whole new level.

Moving from then, till now, it takes some just a few winks and they're here; Some took more than just a few; And some just cant seem to.. For me, I consider myself lucky for again, having these special people in life (I should give them a name), I have the chance to look at it and look at the bright side. I've drowned so many times in this situation and resurfaced with a new lesson learned.. This, is another form of happiness to me.. To know that, Hey! you know, this could be something.. This IS something.. This is IT!
=D

The skill of perceiving and changing how you feel about what has happened is ultimate.
There's always two ways of looking at something that has happened. Regardless whether is was a misfortune or something to shout about.

Many a times, we tend to go trough that shity phase where everything tends to fall apart and all your shit just happen to attack you all at the same time. School, College, Uni, Work, Family, Friends, Gf, Bf, Responsibilities etc. I'm pretty sure most of us go trough that. But the way we handle it, might not be two peas in a pot. Escaping the fact isnt always the best choice. Yes, you might be feeling Cloud 9 for the time being. But as soon as it comes to haunt you again, there you are right back in square one and maybe in a deeper shithole. Well, that's as far as i think it is.

I have to thank my lucky stars that i have wonderful people around to hear me out and sometimes even tell me what to do every time I'm stuck in these shity situations. They help me CHANGE how i face/encounter those difficulties. ( I admit that i do get blocked out from my brain when I'm feeling all useless. Do you? ) Keeping it all to myself, it just tend to worsen and it just totally affects the way i start to think/speak/do at that moment. Yes people, that emo phase. It might even get worse when people around you start to judge you. Shity indeed.

I do hope everyone out there think twice before they decide on how they release/encounter/face/overcome/let go of these situations/stress/frustration.

Just a lil thought I'd like to share. Feel free to comment! ;)

Trouble is a friend - Lenka

To Tal,

1. Name

Jem

2. When and how did we meet?

S'pore buddhist youth exchange!! 1,2,3.. 4yrs ago!!

3. How long have you known me?

i just said 4yrs kan??

4. Do you have a crush on me?

Tal?? hahahhaha.. funny

5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

Hmmm,dont really have one for you...

6. Describe me in one word.

Is this a trick question?? FUNNAAY :D

7. First impression of me.

She bully me on the bus.. :(

8. Do you still think that way about me now?

Ngehehe.. more of the other way round now.. ;p

9. What reminds you of me?

Without fail, laughter....

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?

:)

11. If you and I were stranded on an island alone, how would you feel?

Omb... stop laughing!!

12. When's the last time you saw me?

Dhamma Tunes.. keep very warm...

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

Nopes.. nothing at all...

14. What is my best attribute?

Do i have to keep stressing it out?

TAG!! you're it... to anyone who reads this... Jem wants to know.. ;p